Prove all things; hold fast that which is good. I Thess. 5:21

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

A Vessel

It is important to know our place in the Kingdom of God. I never want to take on a "do you know who I am" mentality, especially with it comes to the faith.

I am merely a vessel to by used at God's discretion. I'm no great thing, but I am God's thing.

Jesus use me, Lord please don't refuse me,
Surely there's a work that I can do.
Even though it's humble, help my will to crumble,
Though the price be great, I'll work for you.

You see, we're all vessels in God's Kingdom and those vessels are all different and God can choose to use us however He sees fit. (2 Tim 2:20-21). However, if we are to be honorable vessels, we need to be counted among those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart (2 Tim 2:22).

I don't know about you, but I want to be used and I want to be pure. Psalms 51:10 says "Create in me a clean heart" and that's what I want. I know the alternative, which is to be cast out of the presence of God (Psalms 51:11).

We don't sing this song as far as I know, but it is a good song that reflects submission to God.

Change my heart oh God, Make it ever true,
Change my heart oh God, May I be like You.
You are the Potter, I am the clay,
Mold me and make me, This is what I pray.

Regardless of anyone or anything else, Lord let me be useful to You.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

A Gift

I can't remember exactly when it began, but it was sometime around the beginning of this year. Almost every day that I've woken up, I've done so with a song in my heart. The song isn't usually something that I've been thinking about, or even a song that is one of my favorites, but it seems that for the most part whatever song I do wake up with has a significance for the day. Even one night when I couldn't sleep and I woke up at 2:30 am, for about an hour I had so many songs about Jesus calming the stormy seas that it was the most enjoyable bit of insomnia that I can remember.

I'm thankful for this gift, and I just wanted to say so.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

My Prayer Closet

I'm sitting here and considering the soft and quiet times that I spend with my Lord. Whether it's a hymn or a scripture that catches my attention or even just a quiet moment in my day, I often find myself taking even just a few minutes to commune with Jesus.

I simply have too busy of a life not to take every chance I get to say a quick prayer, or even just close my eyes for a moment and reflect on the goodness of God. I don't have an actual prayer closet, instead I take my prayer closet along with me wherever I go. Sometimes you can find my prayer closet in my car, sometimes it's in my cubical at work, there are even times that you can find my prayer closet riding along in a shopping cart.

I thought I was only going to copy one stanza of the following song into this post to wrap it up, but as I read each following verse, I found that I had to put the whole song here.

Take time to be holy, speak oft with thy Lord;
Abide in Him always, and feed on His Word.
Make friends of God’s children, help those who are weak,
Forgetting in nothing His blessing to seek.

Take time to be holy, the world rushes on;
Spend much time in secret, with Jesus alone.
By looking to Jesus, like Him thou shalt be;
Thy friends in thy conduct His likeness shall see.

Take time to be holy, let Him be thy Guide;
And run not before Him, whatever betide.
In joy or in sorrow, still follow the Lord,
And, looking to Jesus, still trust in His Word.

Take time to be holy, be calm in thy soul,
Each thought and each motive beneath His control.
Thus led by His Spirit to fountains of love,
Thou soon shalt be fitted for service above.

My friend, take some time today to be alone with Jesus wherever you are.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A Remnant

In a way, this post is a follow-up to the post Consider the Sources. This subject has been on my heart for a long time, but more and more I'm noticing it on the hearts of others, so I am going to try to address some of the issues involved. To really delve into the full depths of this subject properly is probably beyond my abilities, nevertheless I will try.

It seems to me that our group is in the beginning phases of becoming a denomination. I've said before that we use the phrase "Body of Christ" in a way that is analogous to a denomination. Bro. Shaw at the meeting in DuQuoin, IL, said openly to the ministers there that he believed that our group was organizing, which he also stated he was against.

There seems to be a rash of people just waking up to the fact that our group is made up of men, organized by men and even founded by a man. We've had the better part of a century to realize this, but for some reason it seems that this realization is only culminating now. What's got me puzzled about this is why so few people have caught on to this earlier. Still the fact of the matter is that there are an increasing number of people whom I've heard from either directly or indirectly that have begun questioning our group. Moreover there are some that are looking for a better alternative to our group, or even more subtle, an eventual escape plan. I have something to say about this.

I caution anyone who is looking to leave one of our churches regardless if it is for another church in our group, another church in another group, or no church at all, be careful. Reacting to a situation is one of the ways that humans operate, but that operation is often on an instinctive level. When you touch something hot, you don't go through the mental exercise of equating the level of heat with possible burn injuries and the effects that they will have on your everyday activities and then decide to quit touching what is hot. No, you just jerk away. Instincts are good, but they are not foolproof however. In paramedic classes I learned that stab victims will instinctively try to remove the knife which often causes them to bleed out. While they are making the move that will end their life, they still feel like they are making the right decision. An instinctive reaction to a new found disillusionment of our group has the real potential of causing you more harm than good and I urge anyone to think any step that they are going to take through, considering all of the ramifications before they make any move and to not succumb to an instinctive mentality.

Still, even if you are not operating instinctively that doesn't mean that you will make a good decision. Remember you too are a man (or woman) and just because you make a decision, that does not make it right or the best decision for you. Often it seems to me that we tend to make things worse for ourselves, not better. In my opinion, people in general have an uncanny ability to make the worst possible decision for themselves. If we as a race were truly capable of making the best decisions for ourselves there would certainly be fewer unfaithful spouses, divorces, crime, bankruptcies, unwanted pregnancies, and a myriad of other things that have enormous detrimental impacts on our lives. The fact of the matter is that we never see the full picture and are not capable of making unerring decisions. We have to settle for "the best we can do", but still there is another consideration that I haven't addressed yet.

God. I don't know about you, but God placed me in the church that I am in. I've had several chances to leave, yet I know that Great Lakes Christian Church in Warren, MI, is where God put me and regardless of my own opinions and perceptions, that is where I am meant to stay and if I were to leave, I would be going against God. I know that the vast majority of us feel that we are where God put us, and do not feel the Lord moving us elsewhere. I can't express strongly enough that reacting instinctively to a revelation that our group has its problems or relying on ourselves for answers totally ignores the leading of God. Those who have just reacted and moved off may have ignored God to the point of moving out from under His covering. This is why I urge caution.

I've been directly asked on multiple occasions why I would stick with a group that isn't completely following God in the fullness that they ought and instead have made their faith about themselves. I admit that it's a valid question, but my best answer to it is another question. What other kind of group is there?

I had a brother say to me that he doubted that if Jesus himself were to come to a ministers meeting and speak that everyone there would accept what He had to say. He also seemed to have a problem with the fact that not only did I agree with him, but I told him that if this actually happened, it wouldn't be a factor to me as to whether I remained a part of this group or not. That really threw him for a loop, and maybe I wasn't being totally fair to him as it was early in the morning when I told him this and he hadn't finished his first cup of coffee quite yet, but I still stand by this. The leadership of our group is not the primary factor by which I determine whether or not to continue to be a part of this fellowship; No man is.

I hate to disappoint those who haven't come to this realization themselves yet but there is no perfect group that we can choose to associate with. To attempt to find one is an exercise in futility. Man's order is always out of order and when you are talking about a group that is made up of men and led by men, there will always be some of man's order in it, it can't be helped. All of those people who I've heard say "I'm here because I just can't find anything better" about our group don't understand that it wouldn't matter if they did find something better because finding it still wouldn't make God any better.

Let me reduce this down into its most concentrated form so you know exactly what it is I'm really saying. There were these twelve guys, you may have heard of them. Their names were Simon Peter, Andrew, James, John, Philip, Bartholomew, Thomas, Matthew, the other James, Thaddeus, Simon and Judas Iscariot. These men actually had Jesus right there with them for over three years, teaching them and leading them. If I could offer you the chance to spend three years of your life to become a part of that group and to actually sit under Jesus during that time, wouldn't you do it? Seriously ask yourself would want to become the thirteenth disciple?

Before you make your decision though, let's examine the situation more closely. James and John, the sons of Zebedee were concerned about what was in it for them (Mark 10:35) and about what seats that they were to sit in (Mark 10:37). It seems to me the other ten might have been interested in playing politics too (Mark 10:41). Peter was an interesting fellow to be sure. When he walked on the water to Jesus which was proof that Jesus could and would sustain him, he still let his faith waiver (Matt 14:28-30). Judas betrayed Jesus for money (Matt 26:15). None of the disciples could manage to stay awake when Jesus asked them to pray with him (Luke 22:45). Peter physically attacked a man with a sword (John 18:12). They all scattered when Jesus was captured, and only two of them had enough courage to follow even at a distance (Luke 22:54, John 18:15). Peter denied even knowing Jesus three times (Luke 22:61), and Thomas didn't trust the other ten disciples enough to believe that Jesus has resurrected (John 20:25). These aren't the only examples of how flawed the disciples were, just some of the most well known. After this reminder, would you still trade three years of your life to join them and be counted as one of them?

I'm guessing that just maybe the last paragraph might have dissuaded a few people from wanting to associate themselves with the disciples. Consider this though. These men were hand picked by Jesus Christ himself so either Jesus was very bad when came to picking disciples or He operates on a different level than we do. Have you considered that if a group of men who were this closely associated with Jesus could be so messed up, finding a group of men that isn't messed up must be nigh impossible? So why are we spending time looking for something that doesn't exist? Let me tell you how I would answer the thirteenth disciple question. I'd jump at the opportunity to be one of them, not for the twelve men that I listed earlier, but for the chance to be with Jesus. Jesus is what's important my friends, don't ever loose sight of that.

I'm reminded of the pillars of smoke and fire in the wilderness. Let me posit a thought experiment. Let's say that the tribe of Reuben were given the chance to skip the forty years of wandering, would that tribe have come out better than the other eleven? Let's consider it from both sides. Let's say they stayed in Egypt for an extra thirty-nine years and change and left at the last minute to meet their brothers just as they crossed over into the land of milk and honey. Alternatively, let's say they took off and made it to the promised land, and when the rest of Israel caught up with them they could say "What took you so long" and they all laughed about it over kosher BBQ and big pitchers of sweet tea? In either case would the tribe of Reuben have been better off? I say no. I say that for Reuben to wander off on their own, even if they had been able to skip all of the hardship that the wilderness had to offer, would have been extremely detrimental if for no other reason that they would have taken themselves out from under the covering of God. I would also say that even though wandering through the wilderness was a punishment for Israel, the covering being manifest in their presence day and night was still a blessing. Even in reproach, God is good to His people. We can't afford to ignore that for all the turmoil and infighting that is going on in our group right now, God hasn't stopped being good to us.

Somehow however, this whole idea begs a question in my mind at least. Why would God even work through groups that are flawed? More fundamental, does He? I would go back to history for part of the answer. Historically, every group that God has ever put his covering on have managed to find their way out from under it. The nation of Israel used to exist under His covering, but eventually they were carried away and fell into apostasy. How long was the early church in existence before it became apostate, a century perhaps? That may have been how long it took for the results of apostasy to become evident, but I would suggest that the seeds were always there. What I take from history is that not only does God tolerate imperfect groups, He works through them.

God's working is not impacted by the imperfectness of the group that He is using. Put that another way, He does not require a perfect group in order to be able to operate (2 Cor 12:9). The imperfection of the group that God is working through does not in any way diminish His greatness. Friends, God is not limited by us. So when I am asked the question, "Why would you associate with an imperfect group?" my simple answer is "Because God works with and puts his covering on imperfect groups of people, they are called His children".

And yet there is still more to this subject. I was talking on the phone with my friend Steve Lewis, and he made a statement that was good, and since I'm using it, I wanted to attribute it to him. He said that he wouldn't let any man interfere with his relationship to God. He was speaking about other things, but the application to this issue is crystal clear to me. When it comes to my personal relationship with Christ, if I trust in Christ instead of a man or an organization, my faith is secure.

Let me put it this way, have you been or know anyone who has been shaken when someone prominent and respected falls away? Sure we all wonder how they let themselves slide, but if you are impacted personally to the point that your relationship with Christ is effected, then aren't you building your foundations on other than Him? Those of us who were blessed enough to attend more than a handful of Sunday school classes as a child have been exposed to the folly of this idea. I can remember singing about the wise man who built his house upon the rock and the foolish man who built his house upon the sand. You have to understand that if you build your Christianity on Christ, it will be secure because it's founded on the Rock. However anything built upon anything else is some different -ianity, built on a foundation that will, not can, fail. Storms are going to happen in each of our lives, so why would we knowingly build ourselves on a foundation that is vulnerable to storms when we could instead build on one that is impervious to storms? The question to ask yourself is if you have been "too" shaken by someone loosing out, has your faith become dependent on the wrong thing? If so, beware my friend, that faith will let you down.

The same thing goes for groups. Don't let your faith become structurally dependent on a group of people, you will be shaken. Don't let this group or any other group become your source of strength. This applies not only the group as a whole, but also to individual elements of the group (1 Cor 13:8). I don't care how good a group is, it simply can't take the place of Jesus in your life.

Up to this point I've addressed how we should handle ourselves in the situation that we are finding ourselves in. Still, I want to address our current situation for what it is, not in a hope to divert our course from becoming a denomination, but perhaps as a reminder of what we are based on in an effort to slow it down just a bit.

I want to take you back in time to one of our founding moments. William Sowders had a chance to organize with the Assemblies of God in 1914 and was actually planning to go to an organization convention when the Lord gave him a dream. In this dream he was in a hayloft and was looking down at all the animals wandering around in the muddy barn floor getting filthy. The impression that he got was that the men who were organizing in Hot Springs were the animals that were mired in filth of their own creating (not the best mental picture) and that he was to remain separate from that. This was a very good message for Bro. Sowders, but I notice one more subtle thing about the story. God was telling him to avoid organization, not how to create a perfect organization of men. There was no better organizational choice to be had in that hayloft, organization was merely to be avoided.

But avoiding organization is what we've done, isn't it? Well, we've talked about avoiding it enough that's for certain. I've spoken on this before in Order, Organized, Organization, so I won't rehash it again, but I do have a few questions to ask.

When we have a "head table" where a group of leading brethren sit, are they not the heads of our organization, at least in situ? How does this jive with Jesus being the head?

If we are starting to determine who can and cannot be a part of us, I ask you what exactly is it that we are deciding they can or cannot be a part of?

When someone lays down specific guidelines for our entire group and says "This is the way", as has been suggested that we do in our meetings, how is that inline with what Jesus said? (John 14:6)

The reason that we find ourselves where we are right now is because we have misunderstood a purpose that God has imposed on our lives. You see, we do have a commission, and that is to spread the Gospel. Mark 16:15 does not implore us to build a church organization that blankets the world. We are told to let our lights shine to a lost world, not to stay holy by shutting the world out.

We seem to have lost some of this vision. For all of our scriptural scholasticism, we've lost some of the remedial principles that define Christianity, at least as a group. I am not worried about this however because even when the dispensation during which God is using a group is over, there will remain a remnant who will keep the faith and not lose out, and sometimes that remnant, because it has had so much artifice stripped away from it, can be used by God in a greater measure than the group that it came out of if for nothing else than because of a greater willingness to be used. In every age God sustains a remnant that will stay true to Him and praise His name as it should be. One day God will call a remnant out of our group as well. Actually, we teach this, though perhaps not in exactly the fashion that I have laid out to get to this point.

I'm almost done, but before I close I want to circle around to address one final aspect of this question that needs to be addressed, and that is why I personally stay with this group. I've called this group a good group and a special group, and although that has been questioned, I stand by what I've said that this is a special group. I have a reason for believing this, and that is because I still see the covering of God on this group of people. I still see God moving in and out of our midst, and that is just not able to be said of every group of people that attaches to themselves the name of Christian. Understand though, it is for no other reason than that God's covering is on us that I call us special. It's nothing that we have done, nor is it a quality that is intrinsic to our people. It is a transitive quality that will only remain on us while we choose to remain under the covering of God. Even still, if we do eventually move out from under that covering, I believe that there will remain a remnant, and if that is where I am supposed to reside, so be it.

Finally, to those who just do not find any alternative and decide that they still must leave, I leave you with these words:

Put Jesus first, first in your life,
He is a true friend unto the end,
Just take Him with you wherever you go,
Put Jesus first in your life.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Oh Lord, Hear Our Cry

A Psalm for times of need.

You oh Lord are wonderful beyond our imaginings, more majestic than the heavens,
Merciful beyond understanding and sufficient to meet every need.
Oh Lord, hear our cry for we come to you now in our hour of need,
Turn not your back upon us, but see us where we are.
We prostrate ourselves before You and we know that You are good,
We worship and honor you oh Lord, great are Your works upon the Earth,
How can we help but praise You for You are the source of our joy?
Oh Lord, hear our cry, intercede now among your people.
We lift You up and glorify Your name, You are most beautiful oh Lord,
Redeemer of the lost and Lifter of our afflictions, see our need and do Your work.
Oh Lord, hear our cry, for we come before You clothed in humility and weakness,
Without You we are nothing, we depend on You each passing day.
You make a way where there is none, You are our strength and our salvation.
We come before you today with heads bowed low, Oh Lord, hear our cry.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Be Still

I wrote one other post that was more of a testimony (I'll Keep Holding on to Jesus) and now I find myself doing that again. I'm not trying to do anything other than share how God has worked in my life and to life Him up. Perhaps this is not the greatest forum for my personal testimonies, but until something better comes along, I will occasionally make use of my blog for such. It is my blog after all.

Friday morning June 27, 2003, I received a call from my boss asking me to come and see him. I wasn't expecting to be laid off, but when I got that call, I knew that that's what was happening. I only spent about as much time in his office as it took me to drive over there, and I walked out with papers that stated I was no longer an employee of the company I'd worked at for over four years. To be honest, the worst part of it up until that time was just how taken off guard I was.

As I was driving home that morning, still before lunch time, what had happened was just starting to sink in, and I was started getting upset. I had only been out of work before for a week in my entire life, and I didn't have two children and another one on the way at that time (my wife was 8 months pregnant at this time). Needless to say this wasn't a good time for me to be out of work, and work in the IT field was just starting to dry up, especially in Michigan, so I knew finding another job wouldn't be a simple undertaking. I was starting to ask myself why this was happening to me.

I remember think all these things for about the first mile of my way home before the Lord impressed on me the second half of Psalms 37:25 "yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread." Over and over in my head I heard these words repeating themselves. I knew that God was really speaking to me and was comforting me and by the time I arrived home, I had a faith that God would take care of my situation and saw me where I was.

I was unemployed the rest of the year, and in January of 2004 I was starting to wonder what I was going to do. My third child had been born the August before (less than a week after the country-wide blackout of 03) and all my expenses were rising. I'd used up some of my savings and my unemployment insurance was running out. Still I was holding on to what God impressed on me so many months before and I was trusting God to provide.

In the middle of January I received a call an HR representative from the company I used to work for asking me to come in and interview for a job. I had had very few leads so I went in the next day and interviewed. It went good, but after the interview I didn't hear much for a couple weeks so I didn't think I got the job. I was really starting to get frantic during that last week in January because there just weren't that many IT jobs still and that was also my last week qualifying for unemployment insurance. I really wasn't getting anywhere when I got a call telling me that I got the job and would be starting on Monday. So I moved from unemployment right back to employment with my old company without a break in income.

In December of 2007, after working almost another four years for my company, this was all happening again. I received notice that the contract for the project that I was working on wasn't going to be renewed. This was right at the beginning of the auto companies trying to cut costs and somehow I found myself on the front lines of cost cutting measures. The problem was that in January of 2008, IT jobs in Michigan were even rarer than they were four years earlier, and I really had no clue how I was going to find another job.

I had put my resume out on just a couple job sites, and I received exactly one call in January about it. The job was an excellent fit for me, and even the auto company I contract to wouldn't change, I would just be working for a new contract house doing much of the same stuff. The job was even in a building I was very familiar with, so that was a bonus too. I interviewed early the next week, was talking to the recruiter that I was dealing with and the final results is that on January 29, 2008, I ended my stint at the first company and began working for my new company and even managed to double dip on that day, technically being an employee of both companies for a day.

All the while as I was wondering what my next move in my career would be in December and January, I was reminded of that same scripture, "yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread" and not only that, the scripture Psalms 46:10 also came to mind. It was as if God was telling me, "I took care of this once. Be still and allow me to take care of this again."

It may seem trivial to you that not only am I thankful for the years of employment I've enjoyed in the IT field, but that maintaining employment is important to me. If you have experienced job loss and unemployment, you know that employment is an important part of life. I'm thankful for a God that cares enough about me to not only provide for me when it comes to employment, but also cares enough to comfort me when things are not going my way and remind me that this aspect of my life too He controls.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Consider The Sources

If I said that the sky was green what would you think about that? At the best you'd question my eyesight and at the worst you'd question either my integrity or sanity because we all know that the sky isn't green it's blue. The blueness of the sky is a fact and a fact is defined as something that is actual [1]. This definition implies that facts can be backed up by evidence. We don't use the word fact as much as we use the word truth but they are synonymous. When we are presented with the facts, those facts can be proved.

It is not my intention to say that I need external proof in order to believe anything I hear preached from the Word. I can just hear the comparisons to Thomas now if I were to say such a thing (John 20:24-25). I am capable of taking things on faith and I also recognize the blessing that this entails. What I'm talking about in this post is actually the other side of the issue completely. Instead, what I'm referring to is when we choose to ignore proof in order to believe what we want to believe. That is another thing altogether, deception.

Truth isn't dependent on sources. Something is either true or it isn't. Truth stands completely on its own. Truth is based on facts and is able to be proved. Truth isn't subjective or mandated. Truth can't be derived from opinion. Truth simply is.

Is it not our duty to research the veracity of information that is presented and to judge it against the Bible as a perfect measure (Acts 17:11)? Are we not to live examined lives, proving Christ in us else we be counted as failures (2 Cor 13:5)? Is not a fundamental change in us that allows us to test out exactly what God's will is (Rom 12:2)? We should examine what we are presented in all aspects of life and determine the truth of it, however it seems to me that we are blindly accepting anything from a "spiritual" source and blindly rejecting anything from a "secular" source instead.

It's wrong to judge whether something is true or not based on what sources it comes from and yet I believe that there are some in our group who do exactly that. To accept anything that is said over the pulpit as truth merely because it was said over the pulpit is an example of this. I'm not implying some agenda on the part of our ministry, merely being cognizant of the fact that our ministers are men and thus fallible. Somehow though, our group has begun to equate believing everything that comes across the pulpit with proper obedience and being "in order" and to question what we are told has become labeled as rebellion.

The flip side of this coin is ignoring fact because it comes from a secular source. A good example of what I'm talking about is evidenced in what some fundamentalist Christians say about fossils. Some say that Satan planted these fossils in an effort to lead us astray while others say that God hid them in an effort to confuse worldly scientists. Why is it that some Christians go to extreme lengths to disbelieve anything that comes from a secular source?

When you judge the truth of a statement solely by the person that is making that statement or intentionally discredit the veracity of a statement based on an unrelated quality of the speaker that is called Ad Hominem. Shane Clifford and I both have written about this before and you can see what we wrote by clicking on the following links: What Shane says about Ad Hominem and what I say about Ad Hominem.

Instead of having to be spoon-fed the truth, it is our responsibility to go searching for it ourselves (2 Tim 2:15). We should desire a greater understanding of God's Word and His will for ourselves, and we shouldn't be too reliant on any external extra-biblical source, including our leadership (1 Cor 13:8-9). Instead we should be instilling the Word of God in our hearts in an ongoing effort to grow in Christ so that that understanding becomes a part of us and changes who we are (Psalms 119:11, 2 Pet 3:18, James 1:21). Isn't this some of what Paul refers to as pressing towards the mark (Phil 3:14)?

Reference:

[1] http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/fact

Sunday, March 14, 2010

It Will Be Worth It All

I've chosen to live a life dedicated to God, and over the years I have become more and more aware that not everyone is going to be pleased with the choices that I make. This can make my life hard and complicated and fill it with disappointment and difficulty. And yet when it comes time for me to put away this life and all its concerns, when I hear the words, "Well done my good and faithful servant", that will make every struggle, every heartache, and every disappointment that I've ever gone through worth it.

This is my account of the hope that lies within me, for you see my God is worth anything that I could ever go through and is worthy of my highest praise, a life lived for Him.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Unity in Christ

"Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity." (Psalms 133:1)

I haven't always feel led to speak what God has laid on my heart, especially from the pulpit. However I want to be more responsive to the leading of the Spirit and as I've matured I've begun feeling a longing in my heart to be ready for when the Spirit does lead me. Continually I pray for God to impress on me what He wants me to say, fully expecting an answer. I wasn't surprised then when Psalms 133:1 was laid on my heart recently or not long after that when the verses Phil 2:3-4 and Psalms 127:1 were also impressed on me.

Perhaps I'm the only one that sees a particular theme in these scriptures, but I'm drawn to one concept, unity. I am left with a question though, what kind of unity are we expected to achieve?

The first thing that comes to my mind is doctrinal unity. We all believe that the Bible is God's infallible Word, but in each of our own local churches a wide range of beliefs and doctrinal stances abound. In just my own church, scriptural interpretation varies so much that the thought of complete doctrinal unity seems almost absurd. Furthermore, if a church can't achieve this unity, how could an entire fellowship of churches be expected to? I know that Paul told the Corinthians that one day we shall know even as we are known and that is wonderful(I Cor. 13:12). The only problem with this verse is that it has not been fulfilled yet, and right now we don't .

So if the scripture isn't talking about a unity of understanding, what is it referring to? Certainly not to something as mundane as personal preferences, our own likes and dislikes. Whether this applies to styles of worship, what types of music blesses you, whether or not you relate to a certain speaker, how long the services are, when they start, their frequency or any of a non-ending list of the aspects of our shared church experience, to think that we could ever be 100% in one accord and one mind when it comes to them makes the previous thought of doctrinal unity look like a breeze.

Does it seem to you to be a failure or weakness that our very diversity creates an inability for us to be unified in this way? Consider that there do seem to be some churches that manage a semblance of this type of unity, at least it appears that way to a casual observer. I submit that it is actually a blessing from God for our church that we have been kept from achieving this. I've seen churches that have attained this, but only because they focus so much on their doctrine, or their service structure, or their music, or their special programs, or guest speakers or whatever that they have lost their focus on Christ, some it seems permanently. As a result these groups have grown into stoic organizations and have ceased being New Testament churches. "Except the LORD build the house, they labor in vain that build it."

The fatal flaw with trying to base a unity on any of these things is that they all contain a human element which we refer to as carnality. What is doctrine except man's understanding of the scriptures? Aren't music and speaking styles really just an artifice created by men? Aren't things as arbitrary as service length, frequency and structure not set for the convenience of men? Even the modern structures that we call churches are constructed to service men not God. It's not because of what we can bring to the table that God blesses these things, He blesses us based on His love. How can we expect a church that is founded on carnal structures to be anything other than a carnal church?

So if by design we can't bring about unity on our own, where does it come from? Phrased that way the answer is apparent, but occasionally I like to be indulged, so I will continue. Since unity doesn't come from us, it must come from somewhere else. This unity that it is so blessed for us to dwell in of course comes from God.

These verses are extolling us to live in a unity of the Spirit. The thing about this type of unity is that I've experienced it before, we all have. I don't know if I could put it any better than the writer of this old spiritual did:

Let us walk in the Spirit,
And talk in the Spirit,
Let's be filled with the Spirit of God,
If we live in the Spirit,
And are led by the Spirit,
We'll be the children of God.

Walk, talk, live and be led; that's a high calling indeed.

Let the children of God be filled with His Spirit. Truly that's my prayer today, and the burden that's been laid on my heart. I can't adequately describe how heavy this is weighing on me right now, even as I'm writing this. I keep stopping every few sentences and pray for my church family for a greater outpouring of His Spirit. I sit here holding back the tears as I plead for God to send more and more and more of His Spirit. Maybe I'm failing in etiquette and decorum for not asking for just enough to sustain us, but I won't be dissuaded. I'm pleading for more of the Spirit than we've ever had before. I want to be overflowing, bursting at the seams, overjoyed, and to have so much of the Spirit that we can't hardly stand it any more, and then after that I want just a bit more. I want us to be out in over our heads, with no end in sight and to be going home from services tired and refreshed all at the same time. I'm praying for this kind of outpouring for our group now.

Two songs say so eloquently what I'm hoping for in our group. First in Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus, we're told that "the things of Earth will grow strangely dim", and in Until Then we hear that "these things of Earth are going to dim and lose their value." I'm looking for a little dimming to happen soon among God's people. Whether they are valuable things or just concerns, may we lose our focus on them, and get a renewed desire to set our affections on things above, not on things below (Col 3:2). You see, it's just not possible to keep our eyes on Jesus and on ourselves at the same time. Vision has always been fundamental to our movement and it occurs to me that having a Vision might have something to do with what we choose to focus our vision on.

Finally, its my hope that I'm not carrying this burden alone. I wouldn't want to think that I'm the only person that sees a need for more of the Spirit in our lives. Assuming I'm not, I'm asking you to join me in praying for our churches.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

There Must Be Change

Our group is a special group, I don't question that. We have it pretty good in this fellowship of assemblies. It's not a terrible place to be as some would say, neither is it a cult as some have claimed. We are made up of the children of God, people striving to do what's right as a result of the work that Jesus has done in their lives.

To say that we are the restored church however is just not true. I think that the majority of people in this group believe that we are striving for restoration, but we're just not there yet and this is a good goal (Phil 3:12). It brings a sense of purpose to our group and yearning for more than we have today when we consider ourselves this way. I don't know anyone who believes that we are already where we need to be, have everything we need to have, and are already the restored church made manifest. Simply put, we all have a way to go to get to where God wants us.

The truth in the last two paragraphs can be summed up by saying that to get where we need to go, we will have to change. Does anyone deny this? I don't know really. Are we welcoming change? I think not. In the Des Moines meeting last year, several ministers spoke out about fearing change, being slow to change, or being cautious about changing. I realize that some change is negative, and change just for it's own sake can often be exactly that, but if we adopt a spirit of intransigence, we will miss out on the leading of the Lord.

I'm reminded of the person trying to hold sand in his hands. The tighter he bears down, the more sand slips through his fingers. We are at this phase as a group. We are trying to hold on so hard to the things that make us special, the blessings that still have are starting to just slip away. We need to be willing to change.

I'm also reminded of the children of Israel in the wilderness who were always looking back to how good things were in Egypt and never how good things were promised to be in the land of milk and honey (Numbers 11:5-6). If God is going to lead us into a full realization of a restored church, He can't do it if we are stuck defending our position, unwilling to change. Let me take that a step farther. If God is going to lead our leaders into a full realization of a restored ministry, He can't do that if they are stuck defending their position, unwilling to change either. Bro. Atwell said in a sermon way back in 1983 that if in our Christian walk we can look around and see the same issues around us that we have always seen, it's because we have stopped journeying. I don't ever want to get stuck in a position where I've stopped progressing and the only positive thought I can think is how good God used to be when I was still under His covering.

We sing a song about wanting to move when God moves if we move, but I ask everyone in our group, is that what we're doing? I submit instead that we are either waiting to move or don't really have moving on on our agenda. I want to be willing to move on with Jesus, and the only way for that to happen is for us to allow it to happen.

Brothers and Sisters, There Must Be Change.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Plug For Two Excellent Bible Websites

I'm not sure if you are aware of it, but, I've incorporated some Java coding into this blog that when to hover over a scripture reference, it pops up the scripture in a little dialog box (i.e. Acts 2:38). This is a very neat tool, and it is provided by Bible.Logos.com. I see that other bloggers have been incorporating this tool into their blog, and I think it provides not only a nice little reference tool, but also can keep a blog a little less bogged down with a lot of quotations. There are instructions on the site for adding this bit of Javascript to your website if you are interested. However, this is not the only online Bible tool that I use.

My favorite Bible website is Blue Letter Bible. This site is my online Bible of choice. It has many of the same features that other online Bibles have, but has a few special ones that I think are really nice. One of the main good points that is has is audio Bibles (four versions right now), which can be started from any chapter you happen to be reading at the time. Also, every verse has links to Hebrew and Greek lexicons (depending on the original language), commentaries (many in streaming audio format), parallel translations, study tools, dictionary aids, and one of the most unique features, it has a hymn database that lists hymns that are derived from that scripture.

Both of these programs are excellent, and I like them very much. I highly recommend Blue Letter Bible to anyone with an internet connection. I'm interested in your favorite web tools as well. If you have a favorite, please list them in the comments with a brief description of why they are your favorite.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

That Cleansing Blood

I'm sitting here at my computer after just having moved a dozen heavy boxes and a bunch of computer monitors and I looked down at my hands and they are filthy. The stuff I had to move was more than a little dirty and some of the dust and grime that was on it transferred to me when I handled it.

As I was looking down at my dirty hands, I had an impression as if the Spirit whispered to me that these dirty hands of mine are much like a Christian who has to deal with the world. As the cares of life and the weight of this world presses in on us, we can't come away without picking up a bit of it's filth, at least on the surface. This "transfer" can do anything from depress us to influence our actions, but you see, we have a solution for that.

All that I have to do to clean my hands is to walk over to the restroom and wash them. As I scrub my hands with soap and water, the dirt will just flow away. When it comes to my life as a Christian though, hot water and soap just won't cut it. But there is good news brothers and sisters. We have a Savior, one who died for us and shed his blood on the cross and what soap and water can't handle, that precious blood can wash whiter than freshly fallen snow.

So when the filth of this world is clinging to you or maybe has just got you down, don't go trying to fix it for yourself, it won't work. Instead, go to the Redeemer and one more time and submerse yourself in that crimson flow that has the power to sanctify us.

I'm reminded of two songs that echo the thoughts I have for you today:

Search me, O God, and know my heart today;
Try me, O Savior, know my thoughts, I pray.
See if there be some wicked way in me;
Cleanse me from every sin and set me free.

and

Oh! precious is the flow
That makes me white as snow;
No other fount I know,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I think I'll go wash my hands.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

"Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"

Sitting in Sunday morning service this week, Bro. Lord was going through several of the Psalms, and I happen to glance over at Psalms 7:11-13. This passage says how God is angry with the wicked and that if He didn't turn Himself away from wickedness, He would destroy wickedness and that He is actually ready to do this.

While I was reading through this, I had this overwhelming impression of Christ on the cross, crying out "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" (Mark 15:34). The utter terribleness of this thought just simmered in my head all day. In this passage we see that God turned Himself away from (forsook) Jesus, His holy lamb. Jesus wasn't wicked, but He took upon himself our wickedness, resulting in God turning His back on Him (Isa 53:6). The words "He became my transgression" just circled on the periphery of my consciousness the entire afternoon, and more of the depth of Christ's sacrifice was laid open to me that day than had been before.

Two things I took from this experience. First, when I feel despondent and the cares of this life have weighed me down, I am reminded that I am never really separated from the love of God. When Paul addressed the Romans about nothing being able to separate us from the love of God, I realized that not even God's own hatred of wickedness can separate me from God's love because Jesus took that upon him on the cross too (Romans 8:38-39). So, even if I feel like David, and cry out, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?", I know with out a shadow of doubt that even if I feel forsaken, it is just not true (Psalms 22:1).

Lastly, I have an even greater respect for the sacrifice that Christ made for me on that cruel tree. It effects me in such a way that I want to be careful of what suffering I personally lay on my Savior. Echoing the thoughts of Paul again to the Romans, not only is grace not a prepaid, get out of sin free card (Romans 6:1), I want to remember the actual price of grace that Jesus paid. Although He already paid that price, I want to live a life that minimizes the price that He did pay for me.